Sunday, September 6, 2009

The Root of It All

It has come to my mind that the root of most my problems, if not all, is my insecurity.

I’m an insecure arrogant bastard.

How about that?

I feel I am better than anyone else but at the same time not sure about myself.

Such view has rendered myself to act only in two ways when I feel attacked.
  • If I consider the person who’s talking bad about me is better, I will submit myself to a dark gloomy state of self loathing and feeling sorry for myself for not being any better.
  • If I consider him/her to be nothing better or even worse, I will lash out in anger to be taken lightly by a person I think is a total loser.
The art of giving me enough love and appreciation in order to free it from the need to get them from others is a lesson I still yet to learn.

Just hang for it, OK.

UPDATE
(please note that I just got back from Sunday mass, so I wrote this in a state of peace and serenity)
All of the above is worsen by the fact that I have no patience or tolerance for idiots who can’t see what they are, thus are acting smart while in fact everything they’ve ever said or thought is plainly steaming crap.

Stupid, Just Stupid

I have my own stand on religion thank you very much.
So a stupid question like this makes me wonder about Man’s supposedly better brain.

“Why do you always question your religion?”

I am very sorry, but truth be said, it would be very difficult to find a dumber question than that; especially when it is followed with a just-as-stupid remark.

“Just accept it! I do. That is why it is called FAITH.”

God! Sometimes I don't believe You made Man by your image!
No wonder we still hurt each other for the sake of our fucked fucking religions.

First of all, I believe that FAITH is a response from Man to God’s touch.
And since I appreciate God so much, I try to respond with everything I’ve got.
And that includes this beautiful brain of mine.
I can’t just wear a particular outfit or eat something because the supposedly holy book says so.
No!
I have a God-given ratio. I have the wonderful ability to think.
And if I want to find the TRUE God, I will use it in my favor.

“But, Man can’t reach God through logic or ratio or thoughts.”

Yes, I agree with that.
I’m mostly agnostic remember?!!
Maybe I can’t use my so called logic or ratio or thoughts alone to reach God.
Maybe I still need that leap of faith.
But surely as hell (pun intended), I can use it to DISCARD all the idiotic things therein religion.

My brain gives me recognition of what lasts and what doesn’t.
It gives me the ability to differ what really matters and what doesn’t.
Using it, I can see what’s important and relevant; and what’s not.

Clothes, food, postural position, or anything dumb and only come from some traditional cultural heritage is not going to get any-fucking-one to God.
NO IT WON’T!
Awareness does, Love does, Humanity does; but not those stupid ways.
I can’t see how wearing a piece of cloth is MORALLY better.
I can’t see how eating some kind of food has any MORAL values.
I can’t see how arranged postures in prayer are in any way KIND!

They have no MORAL values!
You can’t say those actions are kind, can you?
It’s like saying that my dog is kind because he’s got brown fur. WTF??
It's plainly moronic to consider doing such actions makes you a good person!

Have you seen anyone poor get fed or anyone sad got comforted by it? Let alone will it take you to a higher conscious self of yours!

Stop being stuck with it you stupid people! Wake up and be free! Stop hurting each other for things so vaguely unimportant. I wouldn’t kill anyone who says my dog is light brown because I think he is dark brown, would I?

Wake up and see the real world, Stupid!

Why I Don't Give a Damn Anymore

Ah... Fuck it. You wouldn't understand it anyway.
You've still got a lot to learn my friend.

sincerely,
"the righteous snob"
in response to a late night conversation on Saturday, September 5, 2009

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Samurai Vader

This is old news, but I just found out about it so...

Celebrating 2007 Tango no Sekku (some kind of Japan's Boy's Day festival), Yoshitoku Company (a toy company with a 300-year history of making dolls) released a Samurai Vader doll.

Star Wars has been known to borrow some Japanese culture and style to its characters and plot. Darth Vader's armor is one example. Its design is heavily influenced by Samurai Armors.

The Samurai Vader doll is an attempt to revert Darth Vader back to its supposedly roots. It is 1/4 of the original size and includes a bow and sword.
The doll isn't just made by cutting-edge sculpting technology, it also incorporates a lot of hand crafting using traditional materials. Most artisans enlisted are more than 70 years old.


As you can see, it turns out f*cking awesome.

A kabuto (helm) with bow and sword come with the price of 180,000 yen. While a full ensemble which also includes a yoroi (armor) costs 330,000 yen.
I'd love to get my hands on this one.

Quotes: Last Words

"I don’t feel good."
- Luther Burbank, last words
"They couldn't hit an elephant at this dist..."
- General John Sedgwick, last words
"Ask her to wait a moment - I am almost done."
- Carl Friedrich Gauss, when informed that his wife was dying
"Don’t let it end like this. Tell them I said something."
- Pancho Villa, last words

Squeeze Me Up Please

If you have to choose a Mikrolet (a kind of public transportation in the form of minibus), which one will you prefer?
  • The one that’s crowded?
  • Or the one that’s empty?
I myself will certainly pick a crowded one.

NO, I don’t like crowds.
NO, I don’t believe in ‘the larger the crowd, the bigger the chance to meet someone beautiful’. It’s a Mikrolet for Heaven’s sake. All I ever see are snobbish government workers, loud-insolent-gossipy high school girls, some traders with their oversized goods, mothers with children that for some reasons tend to puke on my shoes, or some criminal such as cons, muggers, and thieves.
Sure, sometimes I get to see college girls or young exec workers. But they rarely catch my eyes.
And NO, I have no sick pleasure of being squeezed by a lot of people.

It’s because I sleep in Mikrolets all the time.

In an empty one, I certainly couldn’t do it. If you see how Mikrolet drivers drive, you’ll know what I mean. They drive in a way you find only in action movies. Pulling stunts between tight close cars, changing lanes without any signs whatsoever, pushing dives around corners and hills, and taking sudden halts anytime they feel like it. I would certainly be tossed around like a pinball.

That’s why I need the crowd; to hold me in my place so that I can sleep.
And every time I’m really tired and about to hop in a Mikrolet, I cross my finger and say,
“Squeeze me up please, I need my nap.”

The Easy Way

I’ve been working to get a passport for the last week. I’m going to Singapore soon so I need it quickly.
A friend of mine told me to contact a person she knew; someone who’s able to get it done fast; a middle man or sort.

I had no options.
So I contacted this person.

I met him the next day. I didn’t stand in line just like everybody else. He just took me to his chamber, took the required files, and that’s it. I didn’t even have to fill out any forms because he said he would do it for me.

The next day was just as quick. I passed a bunch of people that were there before me and got myself photographed first. I finished earlier than anyone else.

It was nice, I know I needed that, but I can’t help feeling guilty about it. I’ve never liked to use this kind of service, and I consider people who do as a bunch of lowlifes.
But now I’m one of them.

I hate it. I hate how it makes me feel.

Anyway,
if you want to get your passport done quickly, you know where to reach me.

hub’s passport service
- It’s so easy, you’ll feel bad about it -