Love Songs and a "B"

I guess you never really know just how many love songs have been made until you're not in the mood to hear one.

Such thing had been made clear to me about a month ago.

While browsing on my PC, I turned on my winamp to kill the silence.
A song was played. It was a love song, so I pressed B (Next Track).
Another love song was played, so I pressed B again.
What would you know, another one was played.
"Aaargh," I said as I pressed another B.
Before I knew it, all I did was pressing B B B and more Bs.
After a few more unsuccessful attempts and a couple bad words, I stopped my effort.

Geez, I wish there had been more songs unrelated to love. A soul searching theme would be nice, as well as friendship, family, or even odd themes that don't offer any kind of insight.

Well, now that I am better I can safely hear love songs. Not the local ones though. Most of them are so whiny, they still hurt my ears. They will have to wait a little more. :)

Embracing Your Deep Shit

"Expecting the world to treat you fairly because you are good is like expecting the bull not to charge because you are a vegetarian."

- Dennis Wholey

If I learn anything from the past 4 months, it will be that life is full of shit.
A classic-well known phrase, I know. But to experience is far different than just knowing.

I was taught to believe that every good deed will come out good, every good person will have a good life. And they're not just coming from my parents, but also from books and movies. The good guys always win. That's the way it is.

Sadly, life isn't always that kind. Sometimes good deeds just turn around and bite you in the ass. Good guys don't necessarily have good life. Sometimes life just loves the bad guys.
This thought-reality gap wonders people. Some blame the devil, some take it as simply God's plan, some even blame karma from their past lives.

I used to trust those things too. Now, I just believe that life is just full of shit. No explanation, no divine plan. Just that. Life is full of shit. The sooner I accept it, the better I get.
I don't mean this in a negative way. On the contrary, I believe that once I accept things, I will see everything in a positive way.
I can always be mad about the bad things in my life, thinking everything will change. I'd still be bothered but hey, I've got hope.
Or, I could try to accept them. Therefore I'd still be happy even when things stay that way.
Just like a zen priest used to say, "What you really have to do is sit, watch the shit, and be fine," or something like that.

Good as words may be, they always sound ridiculous when you're in a deep shit yourself. Having said that, I just hope I could live up to this crap I wrote.